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March 27th, 2007

crappyness @ 09:52 am

Current Mood: bitchy bitchy

the last 2 days i've been feeling extremely mood swingy. 1 minute im so happy and the next im so angry... it's weird. ive never been like this before. maybe it's because i should be getting my period today... but i've never been weird like that before.
so i was soo dizzy sunday and monday. i lay in bed all day sunday because i couldn't do anything. and them monday i went to the doctor. and they didn't know whats wrong. it was weird. i had this feeling like i was floating... like i wasn;t actually walking... my body was just moving on it's own without me... it was really weird. and i could feel my heart beat all over my body. and i was shaking adn anyways it was really weird. but other than that i felt okay. like my tummy didn;t hurt, no cold nothing. so the doctor tested me for like everything. and i have to go back in a week to make sure everything is oaky. but she said right now all they can think of is that i had a 2 day panic attack. i didn't know that was even possible. usually they are extemely short. psych major, i've read about this stuff for class. usually people go to the hospital becuase they think something is seriously wrong, like daves dad in september, and by the time they get to the hospital everything feels normal again. she asked what my stress levels were like. im a university student with no money,of course im stressed plus i may not get into my major. how could i not be stressed? she asked me if i could be pregnant. better not be. hence the getting my period today, or whenever it decides to come.
last night and this morning i kept yelling at oleg every other minute. sometimes i felt so happy. and then all of a sudden, without him doing anything i was all grumpy and was mad at him. for instance i told him "oleg i have a ton of stuff to do today. and you do not help me with anything. you just make there more for me to do" which is completely not true. he came over on sunday and did the dishes for me because i wasn;t well. he does so much for me. i said this because he was walkign around in his shoes, and i have to sweep. we have an inspection today or soon and i have a ton of cleaning to do. im not excited.
both my mom and my doctor suggested i could be pregnant. no way. if they want me to be less stressed that is not the way to do it. the weird thing is sometimes i wish i was pregnant. but then i know i really dont. i have this stupid little thing all planned out. but i know that is not what i want. i want to be able to give my baby everything. i dont want a baby right now. it's so weird. oh well. im just in a really weird mood right now and i dont know why. i should start cleaning. and i have to write an essay today. and do laundry. GAH. i have a ton of recycling to do. we haven;t taken it out since... i dont even know. september lol. and i ton of garbage. im leaving christine a message for when she gets home that she needs to help me with the cleaning. which she does. she never does anything. she made it seem like she was so neat at first. she really isn't. AFSMDGLO. why do i feel like this? im so angry and stressed and my moods are going up and down like crazy. every 5 minutes. if this is what pms is like i understand why people complain. because this is crappy. and annoying. i jsut want to be back to myself where i dont feel like im going to snap any minute.
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